Sunday, January 9, 2011
Which way do I go?
It's no secret that I'm hard at it hunting for a job here in Honkers and that to my dismay - I'm not having much luck. I'm fortunate enough to have an infinite amount of time on my hands daily which means I've been pondering a few kind of big and sometimes scary questions about my career and its direction, which I'm not finding all that easy to answer.
I've enjoyed the jobs I've had so far (physio, very short stint in e-commerce, healthcare strategy/project management/relationship building/Public Health Masters blah blah) but I can't say I've ever loved my job. I've never jumped out of bed punching the air with excitement over my day ahead at work. Don't get me wrong, I've always found it satisfying knowing I was doing a job that was really helping people, supporting people to get the most out of their lives by being healthy, mobile, functional. I've had some life-changing moments which I'll never forget and I wouldn't change them for the world. But all in all and after 7 years in the industry (and I'm stealing this word from a few fellow bloggers because it just describes the feeling soooo well) - I just feel kinda meh about it.
I get oh so jealous when I hear people say how much they love their jobs - I just can't really imagine what that's like. I'm also quite sure there's a hell of a lot of people out there like me that are somewhat mediocre about what takes up rather too large a proportion of their lives.
I've been searching for jobs in the healthcare industry because that's the logical thing to do. It's where my experience is, what I have skills and knowledge of. So that is what I should do, isn't it? I've just invested a lot of time and money in my masters so I should really put it to use in the right industry, shouldn't I? But is it what I really want to do? Is that really what will get me air punching in the morning? Does anyone even do that? I get worried that I'm just one of those people that gets bored after a while and that needs a change of environment to keep me interested. So do I just need a new job in healthcare? Or do I need a whole new job in a whole new industry?
Oh so many questions and oh so zero answers.
I feel like I'm at a real turning point. I could decide that no - I'm going to be safe, stick with what I know, what I've learnt, what I've educated myself in and press on for a role in healthcare, in a pharmaceutical company, a hospital. Or I could decide that yes, I want a career change. I want to use my love for writing, my love for homewares, furniture, my love for being organised, for making things happen, for being with young and old, creative, inspiring people.
But seriously, how do I answer that question?
Lately I've seen a few friends of mine (hello BabyMac, hello NP) really change their lives, making big decisions, taking big risks, not really knowing how it was going to work out but knowing that something wasn't quite right AND being gutsy enough to do something about it. I really admire that quality in people and am starting to think maybe I should take a leaf out of their books?
New city, new life, new friends - new career?